Thursday, 9 May 2013
Rosetta’s weekly account of her experience on the Freedom Programme.
So after putting it off for some time I arrived for my first session on the Freedom Programme. I looked around and felt sorry for the women that were sat around me and wondered if they were looking at me and thinking the same.
Going over the characteristics of the Dominator was really tough, I lost count of all the times that tears pricked my eyes. How had I fallen for all of his crap? How could I have allowed myself to fall so low? I sat there, a shadow of my former self. I look around. Different women from different walks of life and it seems, by all accounts, that we were living with the same man.
The more I listened, the more I contributed and slowly I began to feel a glow inside, a kind of kindling. There was a displacement occurring. I was disabusing myself of the idea that it was my fault, that I'd caused him to react that way, that it was standard behaviour, yada, yada, yada...... The glow became a bright light became a full beam. He was responsible for his behaviour not me.
After this realisation the rest of the session goes by in a blur. I feel alive, I'm animated. I cannot curb my enthusiasm. And neither will he...ever again.